dog sitting again

yay im looking after me bitches again. nelly and tora. for 2 weeks whilts the owners are on holiday. all is good. dogs are behaveing tora is being stupid, and neely is being chilled. i like nelly best. even though she has really really bad dog breath. i like having some space to meself as well. away from home. helen is still at soul survivor so i got space from her to which is kinda a good thing and kinda a not. if you get my meaning. work is sucking at the moe coz its my first week back after holidays. but hey life gos on.

ah home...............

well im home now got home at about 4am this morning woohoo. the double expresso at south mimms was well needed!!!! wow what a last few days ive just had. i heard god speak to me on a few things and i wana sort stuff out coz theres always a habit of after you go to these things and come home its like back to reality and im not gona bother anymore. but i want to bother. lord jesus i pray that the things you challenged me about, you would help me to put them into action and not just bumble along in a blue funk but to actuall y get stuff going and to do stuff. in your name god i pray amen.

anyone got a book or bible they could lend me that would help me to read the whole bible in a year? (chronolodgically)

im at passion for your name yay!

well its been great so far. god has been doing loads in me! i went to a place called the chat room yesterday to talk to a guy about stuff, and to get prayed for and god has really really released me from stuff!!! big time. and god healed stuff in me that i had a problem with i now can say i totaly believe in his love further more i actually choose to belive in his love for me.

and last night i was in the main meeting and i was praying for a guy who had responded to a call to be prayed for. and he came up to me in a cafe afterwards and said that he thinks god was telling him to tell me to pray more for more people!!! WOW!!!!!!! this has been an amazing few days for me in my relationship with god. and its gona stick!!! its gona last coz gods not gona let it slide. sure i may stuff up still but my heart is gods. and hes in my heart! thankyou god for releasing me from something that was holding me back with you. i pray and ask that you would give me the strength to not yeiled to temptation and to know that i have a choice. help me to choose you more.Amen.

passion for your name

well were off there tomorrow!!! yay i cant wait should be a great time. i love these things but im also very aware of them. they are great coz you get close to god you get challenged and you get great teaching and good worship time. time to deal with stuff. im aware of them to because its like yay good with god for a week then oh crap im back to reality and its all back to normal again. many i shouldent be so cynical and try and go with a healthy mind set one of which yes i can be changed for the better in 5 days coz god is god. Hmmmm i duno. but hey it'l be fun too. im looking forward to see if there are any decent chrstian bands around. lord god i pray for the next few days to be life changing for all of us who go. i pray that you would do stuff inour lives that are a permanant change. help us all to get on well with on another. and please let the weather be good all week. thankyou god. Amen.

another song!!!!

heres another song by jars of clay that hits the spot of where i am most of the time with god. i dont have a fixation with jars of clay really its just they are my favorite christian band and they wright great songs!!!



verse one.
empty again
sunken down so far.
so scared to fall
might not get up again.
so i lay at your feet
all my brokenness.
i carry all of my burdens to you.

chorus.
all of these things held up in vein
no reason no rhyme
just the scars that remain.
of all of these things im so much afraid,
scared out of my mind by the demons ive made,
sweet jesus you never ever let me go,
oh sweet jesus you never ever let me go.

verse two.
so happy to love
yet so far to go.
you lead me on to where ive never been before.

chorus.
all of these things held up in vein
no reason no rhyme
just the scars that remain.
of all of these things im so much afraid,
scared out of my mind by the demons ive made,
sweet jesus you never ever let me go,
oh sweet jesus you never ever let me go.


the word for me are just again so acurat and so cutting its like a knife wound to the heart. i think we all need songs like this to challenge us as to where we are with god.

birthday

well it was my 25th birthday yesterday and all was well. i went round helens for lunch which was well yummie(roast with all the trimmings!!) then helen made me a cake it looked exactly like my bass guitar!!! was awesome and tasts great!!! then i opened pressies. helen got me an air bed and a cool bubble thing which makes really really massive bubbles. but the best pressie was yet to come at an unknown date and time. my sister got me 1st seris scrubs on dvd. my dad gave me some money, and im going out for a curry tonight with a few bouys, and ive got a BBQ at the end of the month.........phew i think my birthday will be well celibrated by the time august is out!!!

so right last night i was playing a gig at delanys(how rude on my birthday too) and helen was like yeah ill come down and see you later at the gig. so i was like yay cool. any way 1st set ends no sign of helen. she sends txt gona be late. second set coming to an end no helen, but wait over there in the distance there she is. she was late for a very good reason though. she was finishing my pressie off. and i was totaly totaly blown away by it. it was a big black leather binder inside was pictures of me and helen with funny captions written on . i mean this is something that must have taken absolutly ages!!!!! this has to be one of the best ever birthday pressies that i have ever ever been given!!! i am still in a state of flabergastment over it. so all in all a great day!!!!