yay holidays

yup they are almost here next week me and helen are off to york for a few days which will be cool, then the week after we are gona do some fun stuff aint decided yet. then the week after that we'r going to passion for your name which will be cool.i cant wait for a break from work work has been sucking a little more lately but hey..... will be great to just get away for a few days from everything!!!

first dance

me and helen went to a wedding saturday night and there we had our first dance!!! yay !! it was so cool we both didnt really know how to dance properly but neither did anyone else. which made it alright. but it was cool we danced to bon jovi bed of roses. it was great. as i looked around the room seeing people with thier respected partners(or not thinking of one lady in particularly!!) i was so happy and content knowing that i was dancing with the most beautifull girl in the building.

just the words

sunday we had a wrap up service for the 24/7 thats been going on in norwich. and i getthis sometimes but during the worship we were singing im giving you my heart and i just couldent sing it coz i know i dont surrender everything to god, and im not giving him all of my heart, or all my dreams or everything. i really struggeld al nigh to feel able to sing the words coz i was just like im in such a crap place with god and im so rubbish that i cant say that. i think sometimes we just go through the motions with out really meaning it. of which i too am guilty.

my relationship with god in a nut shell

this song for me basicly encapsulates my whole relationship with god, from oh no ive done it again to a i choose to do this instead of this................ great lyrics enjoy.......




i am i the only one to blame for this
somehow it all ends up the same.
soaring on the wings of selfish pride i flew too high
and like icharus i collide...


with a world i try so hard to leave behind
to rid myself of all but love
to give and die.


to turn away and not become
another nail to peirce the skin of one who loves
more deeply than the oceans more abundant than the tears,
of a world embracing every heartache.

can i be the one to sacrifice?
or grip the spear and watch th blood and water flow.

chorus

to love you - take my world apart
to need you - i am on my knees.

to love you - take my world apart
to need you - broken on my knees.

verse

all and said i stand alone
amongst remains of a life i should not own.
it takes all i am to believe
in the mercy that covers me.

did you really have to die for me

all i am for all you are
because what i need and what i believe are worlds apart.

chorus

to love you - take my world apart

to need you - i am on my knees.

to love you -

take my world apart

to need you - broken on my knees.

i look beyond the empty cross
forgeting what my life has cost
wipe away the crimson stains
till only nails that still remains
more and more i need you now
i owe you more each passing hour
a battle between grace and pride
i gave up not so long ago
so steal my heart and take the pain
you wash my feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish take the weak
and all the things i cannot hide
take the beauty take my tears
my sin an so in part make it yours
take my world all apart take it lord
oh take it now
and serve the ones that i dispise
speak the words i cant deny
and watch the world i used to love fall to dust and blow away
i look beyond the empty cross
forgeting what my life has cost
you wipe away the crimson stains
and all the nails that still remain
so steal my heart and take the painyou wash my feet and cleanse my pridetake the selfish take the weakand all the things i cannot hidetake the beauty take my tears
take my world apart
take my world apart
i pray
take my world apart.


thankyou god for relasing stuff through the power of song. as i sat and wrote this out i felt my heart twingeing again at the truth and power of these lyrics. thankyou god. Amen.

spiritual or not?????

im sort of reading a very good book on spirituality at the moe(a christian one of course) and basicly it challenges our views on what spirituality is. why do we think others of being more spiritual than our selves for example. we think that we have to have our heads bowed down in prayer all the time. or some thing. but the reality is we dont hardly get much time to pray at all. for example just thinking about god is like prayer. there fore being spiritual.

so far this book has made me realis that i am a spiritual person. its just hard to get my head round the sterio typical veiw of what being spiritual is.

work

well ive been trying since january to get a pay rise at work coz my pay is shockingly bad!!!! the other day my boss(boss number 3 out of 6) said that id got it. woo hoo!!!!! but it wasnt waht was agreed so i foud out it should be more. so im trying to push for more. im also gona try and get it back dated to januray coz during this time i had a financial situation on me car. it went wrong and i had to pay out more than i had to fix it. if id of had my pay rise then this wouldent have been so much of a problem. but hey im well chuffed ive got given what i got so.

covers band

the covers band (cough cough....sexed up cough) are in dispute. 2/3rds of the band want me in it instead of the other guy who im depin for. but 1 guy wants to be loyal to him. hmmmm... i really wana stay in it. oh well see what happens. so gigs coming up are

6th july the crown in sherringham

8th july north walsham the orchard.

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see

and heckle....................