the single life

i am really really hateing being single at the moement. its been about 3/4 years since my last relationship, and i really really miss it. pretty much all of my mates are either married or got long time girlfriends and it just really gets to me thats all. i dunno what im doing wrong but every gurl i get interested in aint interested in me. what is it? do i have bad breath? or some kind of deformaty i dont know about? all the gurls i like and wana maby potentialy have a relationship with just dont like me like that. its not alot to ask for. i just want someone to hold my hand, someone that i can share my secrets with, to go on holiday with, someone that i can hold, and kiss, and share my life with. it cnat be that difficult surely??? i guess im not doing myself any favcours at the moement as i sit here writing this listening to steve wrights sunday love songs. doh. this has been laying on my mind big time lately and it sucks. i dunno, sigh......
i wonder weather god is punishing me for bad stuff ive done sometimes. please god dont im sorry. i just feel a bit low about this at the moement. ill be alright.


things are looking up!!!!!

preaching

hooray i get to preach at my friends church on sunday night. woohoo. not! i preach there about twice to three times a year. i hate preaching im well rubbish at it. but i keep on doing it coz its probably good for me. having said that i quite enjoed speaking at fridays a few months ago. i think i find it easyer to speak when im given a topic to speak about. where as this church i have to pick a subject myself. and i always think that i have to be in a good place with god to speak. i feel that i should be sorted before hand but i never seem to be. but still it should make me study the bible a bit in prepairation for it. although i aint sorted nothing for it yet hmmmmm.......... yet again my motivation is not as it should be.

well all was well in the end. yay. i preached on phillipians ch 4 vs 10 - 20. the phillipians genorosity to paul compared with our own genorosity. was cool. and thought up a well wickid game to play too.

musicko

thought id better update this. ive been playing non stop now for ages in bands. have just recently formed an origionals band with a guy called will. seems to be going great. we poached a drummer from a local covers band called kevin. last wednesday was only the second time that we have rehearsed with all of us together and already weve got 4 songs that are at giging quality. am well impressed by the quality of the songs that are coming out. and will has such a good voice. for a bloke. i dont as a rule really like blokes voices as much as womens but hes got an awesome voice. i goota tell my funk band that i wana back off a bit though not sure how they will take it. we(the funk band) practise twice a week for 3hours each session. which is a hell of alot. i think i might leave it for a bit as weve been busy so have only been practiseing once a week which i s much better for me.