what the hell is going on????????

well this is the sum of my life with god the last few months. ive been a bit kind of out of it so to speak. as in not really careing about god and stuff. but the last few days ive found myself thinking about my situation and deciding what to do about it. i had a chat with a guy at church this morning and it helped a little to know that someone was there to talk to if i needed it.

basic fact is i suck.
i suck at being a christian. i feel like the most unchristian guy on the planet alot of the time. but im almost comfortalbele with that thats the worrying thing. but its like i know that god loves me as much now in my state of disgrace as he does in my state of grace that im sometimes in. its just shit basicly. man i duno, like i know whats right and wrong but cant seem to do right for being to much like keith that gets in the way. but then its like god knows why im going through stuff, and he must have a reason for alowing me to go through it. somewhere. after all i know what happens at the end of this life and i know whats gona happen to everyone. where will i stand?

does god expect me to be more like him, or is he amazed at the pitiful insignificant sacrificial things i sometimes manage to do like going to church reading the bible, praying. i duno.

i guess god what im saying is im shit come help me and sort me out. coz i need you. as does everyone they just dont know it or want to admit it. anyway ill report back and see how stuff goes in the next few days.

3 peaks the pictures

this is scarfell pike at 3 am!!!!!





well as promised here are some of them.

here are some of the pictures from ben nevis. as you can see it was very cold on top!